All Alone

Posted by: ManZy165 on: January 28, 2011

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Indeed.

I am currently staying alone. For atleast 23 more days until my brother comes back. I would say, being alone in this house is pretty depressing. Though there is two cats here, it just seems like they’re not around.

I don’t know how to express this. Honestly, its demotivating.  I don’t feel like doing anything at all, yet I feel like I have no time for anything. I guess all I do is wait around. The anxiety from being robbed or whatever is so damn creepy. I have to say I’m very used to not being alone. Always surrounded by people. But now? And because of uni, I feel guilty to go out. I really have to pass this summer course. In just two more weeks it’ll be over. So near yet so far.

I am trying my very best to not feel lonely. Comparing with me won’t do. Others may have work everyday and come home enjoying the privacy, but me? If I have no class or work, its just depressing really. I really hope after my exam, I could go out more. Then again, money is really restricting me. I just had my first medical checkup this morning. Apparently, I have to do my pee test again because currently, theres a lil blood in it. Must be because my period is coming. Sigh. Anyhow on Tuesday, I’ll have my second appointment. But if I’ve got my period, the pee test will have to be postponed again.

Trying my very best to be sane. Trying my very best to be understanding. Trying my very best to keep it together.

I really want Greg to come back sooner.